Late night thoughts.
People say that I tend to feel guilty or bad about things that I don’t need to feel bad about. That I’m too nice. I don’t normally think that they’re right, but sometimes I do feel like I can be a pushover. Right now, though, I’m really not sure. I’m seriously conflicted right now about what I should do about a friend situation that I have. If I’ve been thinking about it a lot, that should mean that I care about the person, right? But if I haven’t done anything to correct the situation yet, what does that say about me? I’ve been kind of a cowardice. I’m pretty scared to confront them because I don’t know how to or what to say… I might even be making this a bigger deal than it really is. If they’re really a friend, it shouldn’t be too scary to try and talk things out with them yet I haven’t been able to bring myself to do so. I’m afraid though, that if I don’t do anything soon, I’ll lose any hope of trying to fix things at all and then another friendship will fade into a distant memory. I don’t know if I want that… but I have yet to do anything about it.
What’s confusing is that my close friends and family say that I should just leave the person alone and not do anything because I did nothing to wrong them. Somehow that doesn’t feel right… and I’m still trying to figure out what God is telling me to do in this situation. I think that a lot more prayer is required on my part.
